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In the end Logan had never made it back to the hut. At least not to stay. He had stepped inside just long enough to grab his board and wetsuit, and had headed off to the beach.

Maybe leaving your husband's birthday to go surfing wasn't the best thing to do- but there was only so much Logan could stand to watch. BetweenJack flirting with others and others flirting with Jack, Logan felt ill. Maybe it was how Jack was, and maybe it was something he'd eventually get over, but today wasn't that day. he didn't like watching Jack flirt with others, and if that made him a shitty husband... Well then jack could just find himself someone more willing to share.

Someone like that asshole who'd been practically drooling on him.

He spent an hour in the waves, and then eventually made his way to the compound to shower and dress. Time had passed, and he felt guilty now for leaving Jack at the party- But a little voice in his head assured him that Jack had likely had more fun without him anyway. It was easier to smile and charm people without your husband glaring after all.

Still, he needed to go home. He couldn't hide forever.

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"Yeah, well, no one was looking," Logan assured the other man, pushing him away. "Most of them didn't know I was there."

He sat down on the edge of the bed and looked up.

"Did you open the box?" he asked.

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"I noticed," he said as he reached up and made the shells clink together.

"Shut up? Really?" he grinned.

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"It's our thing," Logan replied, offering a hint of a smile. "It's what we say."

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"That and 'don't tell me what to do'...but that's a lot to fit on a bullet," Jack replied. He moved closer, kissing Logan again.

"Thank you for throwing me a party and for this. You are way too good to me sometimes."

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"No I'm not," Logan replied quietly, scratching the back of his neck. "I ruined your birthday."

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"Nah. Not really," he purred, stealing another kiss. Jack was good at hiding things, but with Logan he was an open book. He didn't purposely manipulate his husband and he didn't really hold back. It was always clear what was on his mind. Maybe it was the light in his eyes or the tone of his voice- sometimes it was just the fact that he couldn't keep his hands to himself.

"You can make it better than ten minutes ago, though. I don't like fighting with you."

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"I hate fighting with you," Logan admitted, swallowing hard and gasping against Jack's lips. "When we fight, it feels like things are never gonna be good again. Like maybe this time you'll give up on me."

He held on tightly, his fingers digging into skin. "I don't think I'd bounce back if I lost you."

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"Never gonna happen," Jack promised softly. "I made a promise. Til death do us part, you know? It's just a fight. We always work it out. Always. Promise me we always will, okay? Swear it."

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"I swear," Logan promised,, pulling Jack down onto the bed as he lay down.

"Tell me what you want for your birtday," he said softly. "You can have the date and the day on the beach, but what do you want right now?"

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"You know I'm easy to please," Jack rasped, sliding his hand beneath Logan's shirt. "I want you. Naked. I want you."

He kissed Logan's neck for a few moments before he made it to his ear.

"Fuck me," he whispered. "No fights. No games. I just want you inside me."

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"That's it?" Logan gasped, sounding surprised. "O- Okay."

He caught his breath and then rolled them over, pulling his shirt off over his head.

"No games? No spankings? No nothing? You're getting soft in your own age."

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"I just want you," Jack repeated. "I want you close. I want your teeth and fingers and lips. I want your cock and I want your arms...at the party I just kept thinking about how it was nice and fun and I couldn't wait for them all to go home so I could have you."

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"Next year I'll just strap you to the bed and fuck you all day then," he grinned.

He pushed Jack down and smiled. "Take your clothes off. I need you naked. I need you nude."

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"You know...that sounds like a pretty good birthday," he grinned, squirming out of his clothes. "Maybe that's what we should do for our wedding anniversary."

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"Nah, now that you know, it takes the surprise out of it," Logan laughed, removing the last of his clothes and nudging Jack's legs open wider. Pressing his fingers against the other man's lips, he smiled.

"Happy Birthday, baby. Now shut up and suck," he grinned.

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Shut up. It made him grin before he parted his lips and let his tongue snake out and lick Logan's fingers. He coaxed them in and closed his eyes as he sealed his lips around them and sucked lewdly. He knew what Logan liked and after a moment he opened his eyes to look up at his husband...just as he lifted his head and practically swallowed Logan's fingers.

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Logan moaned, wetting his lips as he watched Jack suck.

A moment later and he let his fingers slip free, hitching one of Jack's legs up and running his fingers down the other man's crack. "Fuck you're stunning," he murmured.

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"M'all yours, you know. No one turns my head. No one interests me. Just you. Just y- Oh, god..." he said, his words fading away to a wanton moan as Logan's fingers teased him and made him squirm.

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"It doesn't feel that way sometimes," Logan said, letting his fingers slip inside the other man. "Sometimes it feels like I'm trying really hard to make you mine- and it's not working, because it doesn't always feel like you want me the same way," he confessed.

"I can't look at anyone else, but you can. That scares the shit out of me."

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"You can look...I just get jealous," Jack moaned, wriggling on the bed. Logan's fingers made it hard for him to think, let alone speak, but this was important.

"Logan," he gasped. "Logan, stop. Talk...talk to me."

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"I don't want to look. And even if I did... No one is looking back," Logan said calmly, letting his fingers slip free.

He'd ruined the moment, but after these parties, Logan always felt insecure.

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"Do you want people to look at you?" Jack asked, propping himself up on his elbows. "Do you really?"

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"I dunno," Logan replied honestly, wiping his fingers on the sheets and looking uncomfortable. "I just wish you could feel what I feel. I wish you could feel that sick sharp twist in your gut- that feeling of panic that you could be replaced."

He wet his lips and looked away.

"I was standing right there while that guy gawked at your ass. I was right there while you flirted with that girl. ...And you didn't even think about it. It didn't even occur to you that it might hurt me."

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"Who looked at my ass?" he asked, thinking hard about who he'd talked to. Only one came to mind.

"Oh. Yeah, he looks at everyone like that, I think. He probably looks at the sheep the same way," he snorted. "And Polly is just a girl. I didn't think it'd hurt you because she's...well, I guess she's eighteen, but I look at her and I think fifteen, you know?"

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"Well that just makes it gross," Logan replied, giving Jack a look.

"Forget it, I didn't expect you to understand. I know you think I'm just being unfair- and I'm trying to get over it, but... Just nevermind."

Sighing, he flopped onto the bed beside Jack.

"I guess it's just something that's always gonna be there."