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It had been a few days since he and jack had woken up ill, and Logan was feeling better.

Silently, he slipped out of bed, leaving Jack to get some more rest as he headed into the kitchen to brew some coffee and make some breakfast. It didn't take long, and soon he was standing at the bottom of the stairs calling for Jack to come downstairs.

He had a lot he wanted to get done. He wanted to do the tree and start talking about gifts. The holidays were getting closer, and this year they where going to be perfect... He was sure of that.

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"Better not leave," Logan warned, his eyes narrowing a little before he started to laugh. "And I don't remember you complaining about the sticky mess. In fact- all I remember is moaning. Lots of muffled moaning.

It had been something Logan had never expected to do- but when he was with Jack, sometimes he couldn't help but try new things.

"Too bad we're out of jawbreakers, we could have had a repeat performance," he teased. "You look good with your mouth full and your ass in the air."

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There was a hitch in his breath and his cock jerked in Logan's grasp. He remembered...and he remembered well. The chocolate, the candy, the obscene lollipops. All of it.

"You're such a twisted little shit," he said softly, brushing his lips against Logan's. "I love how...creative you are. You always surprise me."

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"You never surprise me," Logan replied, clearly taunting the other man again as his hands slid over the curve of Jack's ass and squeezed.

Jack was always surprising him, and always teaching him something new.

He was pushing it though, his taunts a little nastier than usual. As if all the sweetness of the days before had drained him and left him unable to play nice.

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"Oooh," he groaned, his mouth a tight O and his eyes narrowing dramatically. "You're going to regret that."

Jack rolled and straddled Logan, sitting up as he dropped his full weight on the younger man to hold him down. Once he was settled he reached down to take both of their dicks in hand, stroking them together and rocking his hips for a little extra drag.

"Open your mouth," he said, his eyes locked on Logan's lips.

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Logan groaned deeply and then shut his mouth firmly, refusing to give Jack what he asked for.

Instead, he fought dirty, grabbing a fistful of Jack's hair and pulling hard. It had to be painful, but Logan knew it was something Jack got off on, and he used it against the other man.

Biting his lip, he mt Jack's eyes with his own, silently daring him to go on.

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He twisted his head, followed the strong pull that made his scalp burn. Reaching out, he laid his fingers against Logan's mouth and slowly pried it open, working his fingers inside.

It had been too nice for too long. Soft touches and tender care never lasted with them. It always came back to force and pain. He gasped as Logan's teeth bit into his fingers.

"Open your fucking mouth," he ground out, squeezing the other man's cock hard just to shock him.

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Logan cried out softly, his lips parting reluctantly as he he held on tighter to Jack's hair.

He didn't surrender, but he was curious to see what Jack had in mind, and he relaxed his jaw just enough to cooperate.

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With just that much yielding, Jack forced his fingers in deeper. Four of them sunk into Logan's mouth just shy of gagging him and Jack pried his mouth open wider.

"Don't even act like you don't want this," he said coolly. "You love it when I fuck your mouth. You can't fool me."

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His eyes narrowed, and Logan wanted to argue that Jack's fingers weren't what he wanted down his throat, but it was impossible to speak with the other man's fingers pressing down his tongue.

The look he gave Jack then made it clear the other man better enjoy the control while he could- because Logan had been good all week. He'd been good, and he could submit a while longer, but later he was having his turn, and it wasn't going to be gentle.

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The look in Logan's eyes made a chill run down Jack's spine. As much as he loved being in control, it was threat in the younger man's gaze that promised retribution that made him ache. It made him want to push Logan to the breaking point, just to see what he'd do.

"Suck," he barked, fucking Logan's mouth with his fingers. He let go of his cock to concentrate on stroking Logan. It was steady and his grip was just shy of painful as he played Logan's body against him.

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It was as if Jack was asking him to disobey, and Logan bit down on the other man's fingers as he let go of Jack's hair and tried to catch his wrists instead.

It was only the beginning though. And for all Logan was clearly worked up, he was nowhere near his boiling point. Jack would have to work harder if he really wanted that.

...And Logan was pretty damn sure that was exactly what the other man wanted.

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Faster than imaginable, Jack let go of Logan's cock and slapped the younger man across the face. He jerked his hand back out of his mouth and inspected the dark purple wells left where the other man's teeth had pressed into his flesh.

"Bitch," he hissed, slapping Logan again, and then wrestling for his arms. Even as he grappled for them, he was moving up the other man's body. Jack sat heavily on his chest. He was inching closer, higher, and finally caught one of Logan's arms, the other grabbing his hair to hold him to the bed. His cock laid heavy and thick against the younger man's cheek.

"How much pain do you need to be in to suck my dick?" he asked snidely, giving Logan's hair a sharp tug.

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His face stung, and Logan squirmed and swallowed hard when he felt Jack's cock bump against his cheek.

"None," Logan gasped, whimpering a little and then growling softly. "But if you put your cock in my mouth, I will bite it off," he warned, struggling hard and twisting away. "Bastard. Let me go. We both know this isn't what you really want. You don't want to fight me- not like this. You want me to take control. Say it. Admit that's what you really want- and I might give it to you."

Though they both knew that wasn't how it worked.

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"Bite me," Jack snorted derisively. "See how well that goes over."

He let go of Logan's arm and leaned forward, guiding his cock against Logan's lips and then forcing his way in. Lifting just enough, he let go of his cock and slid his hand down to catch the younger man by the throat. Holding him by neck and hair, Jack thrust in as much as he dared. He didn't really want to hurt Logan. But pain was all relative.

"God, I love your filthy mouth," he groaned as the wet heat enveloped him. "Maybe if you're lucky, I'll come in your throat instead of all over your face."

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Part of him, a small part, had expected Jack to take him up on his offer. Sure, it was unlikely, but stranger things had happened.

He gagged a little as Jack forced his cock down his throat, his eyes locked on the other man's as he stopped struggling. After all, there was no point. Not now. They both knew he would never hurt Jack that badly, and the other man's hand around his throat was warning enough not to struggle.

Not that he'd ever complained about Jack choking him before... but he was fairly sure the last thing he wanted was to pass out with Jack's dick in his mouth.

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He moaned obscenely, thrusting into Logan's mouth again and again, just using him. There was no other way to describe it. He did just what he wanted, did what felt good, and just barely kept from gagging him.

Eventually he pulled back and took his slick cock in hand, milking it just above Logan's lips. Precome dribbled from the tip and he smeared it against the younger man's mouth.

"It'd be such a waste to lose it like this," he gasped. "But you look so good with come on your face."

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"Don't," Logan said quietly, his voice a little horse.

He swallowed hard, the other man's palm firm against his throat. "I don't want that. I'll be good, just- fuck me. Please. You can do whatever you want, but don't end it like that. Tonight has to be more than that. It's been so long..."

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"I want you on your hands and knees," Jack replied, stroking himself slowly. "If I'm gonna fuck you, I want to be balls deep in you. I want to make you moan. Want to reach around and jerk you off..."

He smirked as he moved off Logan. He knew the younger man didn't like being on all fours, but Jack loved the way it made him blush to offer himself up, totally on display.

"Roll over, baby. I can tell you want me inside you."

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Logan's skin went red, and he frowned slightly as he reluctantly turned over.

"Fine," he said, deliberately kicking Jack a few times as he settled in on his hands and knees. He kept his legs shut as he got into place, offering himself as much modesty as he could while he waited for Jack to fuck him.

For all he was covering himself though, Logan didn't miss an opportunity to wind Jack up a little, and he arched his back as he settled in. It was just enough of a stretch to lift his ass high and give his whole body a slight wiggle.

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It was almost more than Jack could take. He reached for the lotion and slicked Logan up, his free hand rubbing the younger man's back in slow circles as he screwed in one and then two.

"I love you like this," he rasped, forcing his fingers in deep. "I love watching you. I love when you...wait."

He pulled his fingers free and sat back on his heels quietly, just watching Logan as he put himself on display.

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His skin burned hot, and Logan stayed still for as long as he could stand... and then pulled away, moving to get up and off the bed.

"No," he said, quietly but firmly. "I can't... I can't do that. I can't show off for you. I can't... I just can't do it. I'm sorry."

Logan had been getting so good when it came to being self conscious, and suddenly it seemed like they'd taken a huge step back. ...Back to the days where Logan couldn't even stand to be told he was beautiful.

Back to a time where praise was desired, but hard to accept- while pain and humiliation came easily.

"I need a minute," he decided, turning to head out of the room.

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Jack watched Logan get up and leave and felt as if he'd been doused with ice water. He'd done something wrong, though he wasn't quite sure what it had been. He hadn't done anything they hadn't done a hundred times.

Listening to Logan's footsteps carrying him away was more than enough to kill every ounce of desire. He sat down on the bed and watched the door, wondering of Logan needed a minute...or if he was coming back at all.

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Truthfully, it had blindsided Logan as well, the emotions coming out of nowhere and knocking him down hard. Jack hadn't done anything, but it didn't occur to him to assure the other man of that, his thoughts too focused on himself.

Pulling his robe on, he stood in the kitchen for a while, pulling himself together as he built up the courage to go back upstairs. It took a while, but eventually he found himself standing just inside their bedroom- only to cross the room a moment later and settle in on Jack's lap.

"I'm not beautiful. I'm not good... I'm not, and I can't pretend to be right now. I'm not the one people drool over. I'm not anything special, and today I can't pretend I am. I just can't. I'm a jerk, and I'm an asshole- and I'm not beautiful, Jack. I'm scarred and I'm a mess. And that's okay. I can be those things when I'm with you, and they don't seem so bad."

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He wrapped his arms around Logan and held him close, not entirely sure what to say. In his eyes, Logan was stunning. One of the most beautiful things he'd ever seen. He knew that other people didn't see him like that...which Jack was fine with. It meant he didn't need to compete with anyone very hard.

"You don't have to pretend anything," Jack said softly, pressing his lips against Logan's jaw. "You're mine...good or bad, it doesn't matter. You're not an asshole to me. That's all I care about."

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Logan said nothing at first, his eyes slightly damp as he rested his forehead against Jack's.

"It matters to me," Logan said quietly, admitting for the first time something he'd never said out loud. "It matters to me, Jack. It matters that I'm not- Attractive or nice or- all those other things people look for... When I realized Scotty had a thing for you, I wasn't worried I'd lose you to him, Jack- I was just jealous. Because it's always you someone wants, and it's never me. ...The last person to show any interest in me tried to kill me. The last person to show interest in you cooked a five star meal."

Taking a deep breath, he sat up and exhaled slowly. "It was the same with Neil- and Ronnie, and Lilly. I thought it didn't bother me, but it does. And I'm sorry, 'cause I know I'm ruining our game, but- I need to get this out before I bury it again. I just- need to say it."